     I know you're upset about him. It's okay, be upset, cry, scream into your pillow till you think you've lost your voice. But looking back on this stupid boy who broke your heart in the future, you'll laugh at him, Laugh because he thought he was doing the right thing at the right time. Turns out he wasn't because he lost something amazing. And you'll thank him. Thank him for making you stronger, and to say to hell with him, I'm great. But most importantly you'll appreciate what he did, because without him leaving you wouldn't have found the amazing boy you're with now.  Why give people the satisfaction of letting them get the best of you? People are too weak to follow their own dreams & will find every way possible to try to discourage yours. It’s a natural thing, don’t curse it – bless it. Because these pathetic mother fuckers encourage my conceit.  People were created to be loved. Things were created to be used. The reason why the world is in chaos is because things are being loved and people are being used.  Being a woman is a terribly difficult task, since it consists principally in dealing with men.  I know that things between us are pretty much beyond repair now. And I wouldn't ever presume to try and make everything better with a conversation, so that's not what this is, but I just wanted to tell you -I just wanted to say, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain it caused you. But mostly, I'm sorry for my part in it. I'm sorry because I miss our friendship. And however far off it may be, I look forward to the day that we can be friends again.  When you're hurt and scared for so long, the fear and pain turn to hate and the hate starts to change the world.  The only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you used to intentionally hurt someone.  If a girl understands your bullshit, sticks around through all your mistakes, and smiles even though you've done nothing for her. than it's obvious she's a keeper, but it's also obvious you don't deserve her.  If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?  What screws us up in life the most is the picture in our head of how it should be.  So this is the time where we don't talk for a month and everything gets awkward. Can't wait for the result.  When scientists discover the center of the universe, sweetie I assure you that it isn't you.  I wouldn't say that hope is making me hang on. I don't even have hope anymore. The reason why I'm hanging on is because I just can't let go.  I am just so sick and tired of this. I want to be alright without you. I want to be able to go a month, a week, a day, an hour without thinking of you. Without wondering why it is you don't care at all anymore. I just am so sick and tired of needing you in my life, knowing that you only make me sad.  The feeling when I'm with you, right there, is the exact reason why I never gave up when everyone else said stop trying.  If your presence doesn't make an impact, your absence won't make a difference.  Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.  Why are some girls so naive? Sweetie, he didn't unbutton your blouse to get a better view of your heart. 
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