 I hate what you’ve done to me. You’ve made me afraid to fall in love, afraid to care for anyone, afraid to trust anyone. Ever since you left, after all the broken promises, I can’t trust anyone, I can’t get too close to anyone. I’ve built a wall so high around myself, no one can get in. You’ve made me like this. Every time someone new comes into my life, I distance myself so much from them, they leave. You’ve been the cause of all the dysfunction in my relationships, and you have no clue, because I still love you so much that I’ll never actually tell you any of this.  
Congratulations, the biggest asshole award goes to you. Fuck you, seriously. She felt heartbreak for the first time & it sucks.  
What's worse than wanting something you can't have? It's not knowing what you want. Wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in; someone to hold. Having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from. Being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be - in the present. Stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything you know and love. The uncertainty could just about tear you to bits.  
Your friends are your release; they're who you have the most fun with. And yet when the going gets tough, those people turn around and suddenly, they're not just making you laugh. They're being this rock and giving you all their advice, even though you're so much your own person. If you dissect yourself, I guarantee you, your friends are in there. Their influence is incredible. They're the people whom you need most in your life.  We complain about how much life sucks. But how much of it is actually bad? Sure, the guy of our dreams may have broken our hearts, but what about the millions of other people who have a broken life. They didn't ask for any of this. We did. We allowed ourselves to trust the guy that everyone else was warning us about. We let him control our emotions. The other people didn't ask for their lives to be ruined. But look at us anyways. We're complaining and whining about a life that's pretty damn great. We can get up on our feet and move forward. Where are the others going?  
I can't resist, i want to know something. Did you ever care about me? Because now thinking back on things it seems like you never did. You just wanted to feel something and i was that something. I gave you my all, when you gave me nothing. I was too blind to see the lies behind those beautiful blue eyes. Turns out, just another one of those boys my momma warned me about.  
You walked away from me. You just left me standing there, on my own. I showed you the real me and you did nothing. I gave you my heart and you broke it in pieces. So don't ask me if I'm okay, because honestly, you know I'm not.  
Find the one you can be yourself in front of. Someone that you can share anything with; like a best friend. It's when you can't even imagine what your life would be like without that other person and even though it doesn't make sense to other people, you know that you're meant to be together.  
If your really over me, fine. Don't text me, or act like you used to. Don't look at me with that look on your face that you know used to take my breath away. Baby, let me be. Don't play me on, just leave me alone. Show me it's really over.  
You're like my first bad habit, I can't live without it. I can't give you up. And even though you're trouble, I come back for double. I can't say enough is enough.  
She's been wrong, she's been lied to. She's been deceived and she's been used over and over again; but this is the last straw. Your luck's run out, your “sorrys” don't mean a thing. She's over your apologizes, she's tired of your games. She's going to do what's best for her, she now knows the truth. That's why this time, she's walking out on you.  
We may not be right for each other, but we're young. The whole "soul-mates" thing doesn't exist this young. We live in a world where all we do is strive for more. But why can't we be happy with what we already have? If you can take a lesson from "You never know what you got, until it's gone", maybe we'd learn to appreciate what we have more often. You can't always get the perfect moment, all you can do is make the best out of the circumstances. Because there will never be the perfect guy, but there will be the guy you learned to love; his flaws and everything else in between.  
I wish I had the guts to just walk away and forget about what we had, but I can't, because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.  
I just hope one day you see me, and your heart stops, and you realize what you could’ve had this whole time.  
Don't let him tell you you're not worth it. You're amazing, you're beautiful. And you could love him more than anyone else could. And if he can't see that this is a once in a lifetime chance, he's just not worth it.  
What's the point of trying to meet you in the middle? You got your point of view. There's nothing I can do. Can't change your mind. Can't leave it all behind. You're living in the past.  
I planned to say all these terrible things to you, but in the end, I just want to tell you I miss you. There was never a moment I tried to remember you, because there was never a moment I forgot you.  
I think letting you go was the smartest decision I ever made. Even though I loved you so much, I just couldn't deal with the pain. And the times we spent together, holding each other, were the best times of my life. But no matter how much I wanted to keep you in my arms, I couldn't. I couldn't hold onto you, knowing that all you were going to do was hurt me. But right now, even though I still love you, I don't need you anymore. I don't need you to complete me. I just need you to comfort me when I'm sad, support me, and listen to me when I talk. So I guess what I'm saying is, I'm glad we're over. I'm glad I've let go.  
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