 Follow me on Twitter for more quotes Sometimes you question yourself. Are you doing the right thing? What will people think about you? But the truth is, it shouldn't matter what people think. As long as you're doing what you love, then you'll know it's the right thing to do.  I'm looking for the slightest sign that you miss what you left behind.  You can’t have a better tomorrow if you’re thinking about yesterday all the time.  I'm never shocked when people let me down nowadays. I just hate the fact I put myself in a position to be let down in the first place.  When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change your feelings because it is the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares.  I feel my life is so scattered right now. Like it’s all these small pieces of paper and someone’s turned on the fan. But talking to you makes me feel like the fan’s been turned off for a little bit. Like things could actually make sense. You completely unscatter me, and I appreciate that so much.  It's disgusting how I love you, I can't take it. I should hate you.  Sorry doesn’t fix anything. Sorry doesn’t erase the nights I cried myself to sleep because I was alone. Sorry doesn’t take back the terrible feelings I had because the one person who I trusted to keep me safe and to not break my heart left. Sorry doesn’t negate the fact that you did this before and promised you would never do it again! Sorry is a worthless word that means absolutely nothing to me anymore. Much like promises, thanks to you.  I feel like everyone else gets the best of you and I just get the rest of you.  You know that feeling of waiting for someone. I mean really waiting for someone - standing in front of a restaurant in the cold and having hundreds of people pass you on the sidewalk. And you don't want to do anything else, because you're afraid you might miss something - that somehow if you don't spot him right away, he'll walk right by. So you stand there and you don't do anything except think about how you're standing there. Occasionally you might look at your watch, or check your cell phone to see if it's accidentally on silent, even though you already checked for that a minute ago. That's what this is starting to feel like.  I want to travel. I want to see the world and leave a mark. I want to leave home with nothing but a map and a polaroid camera and go to places nobody’s ever been. I want to explore ancient ruins and spend a night in a medieval castle. I want to talk to strangers, learn new languages and save a couple lives along the way. I want to be “that girl” that was crazy enough to go out on her own and do it all. I want to be remarkable, breathtaking and insane in all the best ways. I want to be anything but ordinary, because the idea of leaving the world without making a difference scares the shit out of me.  I’ve been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it’s really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you’re always glad you took it.  You’ll figure your shit out. You’ll find the sunshine. You’ll prosper. I promise. Keep your head up, love.  I've decided I need to be more spontaneous - stop thinking about things so much and just do them, or else nothing that I want is ever gonna happen. Like today, there were so many things I wanted to do - that I should have done - but I waited too long and missed my chance. So tomorrow I'm gonna try much harder to just do the things that I want - not think about it, so hopefully it will be better.  Looking back over a lifetime, you see that love was the answer to everything.  Yeah, I get it. I'm not like most girls. I'm myself around you. I don't need to flirt with you every minute to try to get your attention. You actually know me. I've actually been there for you when you needed me to listen your problems. I was always there to tell you I care. And maybe thats what scares you? I actually care about you, even when you think no one does.  The worst thing one can do is not to try, to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized - and never knowing.  |