 Follow me on Twitter for more quotes I've become a believer in not defining everything. It seems like every timeyou think you've figured out what something is, it changes.  After the funeral, my grandfather hugged me. And I’ll never forget what he said. He told me that he had just lost the love of his life, the most important thing in the world to him, and that it hurt like hell. He said he probably wouldn't ever be the same. But then he looked me straight in the eyes; he said that his time with her was something he would never trade, that it was the only thing worth living for. He told me to find that. He told me that once I had that, nothing else would be as important. And he said once I found it, to cherish it and never let it go.  I used to be such a strong person but a lot has changed, a lot has happened. I've had to deal with so much more than any person should ever have to go through. and you know something? I finally broke. Everything around me crashed and I fell right with it. I'm not that strong and I can't handle this anymore.  Don't edit yourself. I don't want the half version, the kind you use to make parents adore you. I want you. I want the flaws, the stuttering, the cursing, and the clumsiness. I want it all. I want your bloopers and laughs. I want the awkward...everything. I want your goofy. I want your anger. I want to fight with you. And you to piss me off. I want to frustrate you. Won't you let me? Will you let me in and show me how you operate?  People are just people. They shouldn't scare you or make you nervous. Everyone is just as afraid and just as lonely some of the time.  I've made a lot of mistakes concerning friendships, and I've wronged a lot of people. But I've realized through that that the one's that matter are the ones that you will fight with and you'll both cry for hours over it for nothing. You'll drift apart from them, but you realize you've never been closer. You can pick out the person you miss the most, and you'll pick them even though you still speak with them everyday. I think you miss the exclusiveness, but in the end you realize if you love someone so much, you need to share them with the world. You need to show the world that they're much more than just this person you know.  Smetimes, all we need is the knowledge that the other person keeps you in their thoughts, and that they care.  At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It's not like you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.  I don't know why, with such a glorious world as we've been provided, with birds, sunshine, beautiful trees and flowers, and the radio, why people don't get on better than they do.  I feel like I should be given a sheet of paper that explains to me why bad things happen to me. Why it seems I'm taking steps forward, but I'm really running backwards. I feel like someone should draw me a diagram explaining why things seem so perfect right before they suddenly fall apart in my hand like sand slipping through my fingers.  When they knock you down, you not only have to get up but make it clear that you won't be knocked down a second time.  Sometimes when I look at you, I become sadly aware that all of the things I used to feel for you are still there.  No matter how much time has passed, these things still affect us and the world we live in. If you don't pay attention to the past, you'll never understand the future. It's all linked together.  Depression is such a cruel punishment. There are no fevers, no rashes, no blood tests to send people scurrying in concern, just the slow erosion of self, as insidious as cancer. And like cancer, it is essentially a solitary experience; a room in hell with only your name on the door.  The worst thing is holding on to someone that doesn't want to be held on to.  I do my thing, and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I. If by chance we find each other, it's beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.  I always like to look on the optimistic side of life, but I am realistic enough to know that life is a complex matter. 
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